wishing

right now...
i'm wishing this would all go away,
that i didn't feel this way,
that you did.

i'm wishing i wasn't wishing
because i should be grateful
for what i have
but i'm a bit of a spoiled brat
and can't be satisfied with everything
in front of me.

i'm wishing i didn't have to go to school tomorrow
actually, i'm wishing that i
didn't have to go to biology
because i quite like english.
i'm wishing that i'd stop wishing i didn't
have to go to school tomorrow because i know
in the back of my head
that there are millions of people in this world
who would give anything
just to go to school.

i'm wishing
i'm wishing
i'm wishing...

SOMEONE PUNCH ME ALREADY!

my ultimate high ♥

no boys for me.
not right now,
not in this town.
'cause i've got all i need
right here within my reach.

i've got my girls.
i hope they know they got me
to be behind them,
and squeeze their internal organs out
in an honest-to-God beautiful hug.
i hope they know that everytime
we hug like that,
i really don't want to let go.
i hope all the tears they shed are happy ones
because dry eyes aren't healthy 24/7.

pretty faces, all i see
and i hope that one day,
we might just give up the pretense
of not seeing ourselves as beautiful.
'cause baby don't you know you are?
you are.
and so am i.
otherwise we wouldn't be here,
i don't think.

so i hope that when you read this,
a smile spreads across your face.
maybe a tear falls,
and maybe you're laughing,
even though i'm not that funny.

the point is,
i don't need no shiny things,
no cutie boy on my arm.
'cause i got what i need,
just me and my girls.
just being with you
gives me my ultimate high. ♥

drowning alone

Slowly my world starts to fall

My patience runs out

Anger takes over me

Where there is no one to listen

My heart gripes in my chest

My stomach knots in pain

You promised you would never leave me in pain

And here I am, alone to fall

Unable to bear the pain in my chest

Because now you’ve shut me out

You said you were here to listen

Now no one’s holding me

You said you loved me

Enough to cause me no pain

Listen

All there is to hear is the rain fall

All I want to do is cry out

The sadness throbs in my chest

The burn grows sharper in my chest

Without you, I’m not me

My desire to live runs out

Along comes a new pain

Now you’re not here to catch me when I fall

I still dream you’re here to listen

It’s hard not to listen

To the pain throbbing in my chest

The pain is so great I’m about to fall

The me that was before you left is no longer me

Drowned in pain

Someone! Pull me out!

My memory is fading out

Still no one here to listen

Slowly, dies away the pain in my chest

I am no longer me

Alone, I fall

There is nowhere left to fall, time has ran out

You never loved me, not enough to listen

 All you did was cause me pain

i believe

I believe in the power of music

The strength of words

The guidance of the stars

The commitment to do something

The words of the bible

But the belief that every woman

Needs a man is just ridiculous

I believe in the power of love

I believe in supporting others

I believe in hope

Courtesy, Independence, Dedication

And I believe in giving everything my all

happily ever after

Promise me I'll never be alone

Promise to love me until the end of eternity

Promise to be there

Forever and Always

Now, here I sit years later

Without you

All your broken promises

Whipping my heart

Like a cold bitter wind

I need a miracle

To be able to live

Once again

This time

I'll be without you

Stronger.

Promise to love everything about me

Promise to listen

Promise to comfort me

Promise to be my knight in shining armour

Your ears were flooded with the sound of your own voice

Your words were more harsh than a bitter wind

There was a chink in your armour

And no light in your heart

Now, here I sit

Happier than ever

I'm without you

But there is no pain

Instead, I sing and I dance

I don't need to dream

Because my dreams are right in front of me

The sun is high in my sky

And the stars are bright in my heart

I'm finally living my Happily Ever After

always needed you

I can't turn around

My pulse quickens

My heart throbs

My legs fly beneath me

Moving faster than the rest of me

I can't keep up anymore

Your sudden mood changes

Drive me insane

You give me no choice;

I have to keep running

I've run into a dead end

I'm all alone.

It's over.

I fought.

And I lost.

And so I'm not running anymore.

Come and take me

I've lost the will to keep going

And now I need you.

I always needed you.

Why did I leave?

I always needed you.

That was stupid of me.

I always needed you.

Why didn't I see?

I always needed you.

Why did I keep running?

That doesn't matter now.

I can see it clearly now

I always needed you

I always will.

No matter how hard I try to fight it,

I will always need you

stranger

The world is quiet.
But it has much to say.
Keeping secrets that slowly accumulate.
That slowly make the world we once knew,
A mystery.
Even to us,
The world is not anything but unknown.
Unknown to us.
How do we live?
How do we live,
When everything we know
Is everything we're not sure of?
How do we live,
When we don't know who we are?
How do we find out who we are,
When we don't know where to start looking?
How do we find out where to look,
When what we thought we knew,
Is nothing but a stranger?
I guess it's just all part of the Mystery.
Life's mystery.
I guess we'll never know.
I guess we'll never figure it out.
But maybe someday,
Someday...